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this is just a wee quick update haven't been on much, and would love to say it's because i've been busy but it really isn't! :( lol im 19 weeks now bump is gettin bigger and felt the baby kick for definate last night! yeyyyy!! lol my tummy is slowly starting to look like a road map thou so invested in some Palmers cocoa butter for stretch marks see if it's any good i shall let you's know ;) lol i am cleaning constently atm i can't sit still for 5 minutes and the littlest bit of mess annoys me and has to be tidyed lol. 5 days till my scan now!! feels like it's dragging in lol my mum is convinced i'm having a boy i swear i should have took bets! lol. going shopping next wednesday will be great when i can actualy buy colours and not just white and cream! lol. i have finalyy picked the baby pram i want the picture doesnt make it look that amazing tbh but all the bits and bobs thats with/on it have won me over lol

I'm still not 100% on what cotbed i'm getting yet i'm thinking of one i have seen in mothercare but we shall see :D xo

18 weeks <3

18 weeks and 2 days gone =) find out what i'm having in two weeks can't wait!! been online shoppin in mothercare today and i think i may need a small fortune for everthing i want to buy lol picked a gorgeous cotbed thou so need to start saving some pennies for it. Youd think when people grow up and move away from their mum that when the fall out with people they wouldnt get their mums to leave threatenin comments on social networking sites "to take action" if it happens again all i have to say to it, its LOL love :). Baby is moving around a bit more now i swear i have felt a few kicks but i'm not 100% sure on it yet lol Booked my wee caravan holiday today 8- lol, seton sands for a week with the family including Louise if she has holidays from uni (fingers crossed) will be great just to get away from dunfermline for a bit, away from the same old lol. Really looking forward to the next few weeks mums on holiday from work soon so will be good to spend some time with her, then my 20 weeks scan find out the sex (yeyyy) and then i have Louise coming up for a wee visit hoping she gets over the Swine flu and can come up to help me wit the baby shopping! lol get better soon hun! Best news i've had all week is that i wont have to move out and will get my own room with the baby my mums an absalute star and giving her room up for me! new bed re-decorating and making it all baby safe i can't wait! Pretty boring couple of days ahead thou looking forward to buyin my maternity skinny jeans tmorro! i have missed wearing my skinnys with some flats! xo

moving out?

Todays been a eye opening day tbh, turns out we wont be getting moved to a bigger house (we as in family) any time in the near future so I have made the decision to move out before baba gets here makes life easier for everyone involved =). Quite excited about it really started making lists of everything I shall be needing checking internet prices as i will be lost without it and my laptop lol, picking out sofas and colours already and haven't even got a house! lol. Feels so grown up gonna have a gorgeous little baby and my own house by the end of the year never saw that one coming when i thought what 2009 would bring lol I'm just lucky i have great friends and family around to support me though it all. oh was 17 weeks gone yesterday so only 23 more to go! lol Everythings going pretty peachy these days and things are starting to look up bout time! lol xo

Thank You

There comes a point in life where you get sick of always being there for people and wish for once they would be there for you for a change. The ‘friends’ that tell you “their always there for you” but when it really comes to it they have something more important to do or someone more important to be with and can’t even spare 5 minutes to send you a wee text to see how your doing. The ‘friends’ that say “I don’t know what I’d do without you,” because your always there no matter how they treat you, no matter how much their not there for you because you don’t want to let them down and you know they need someone. Then when it comes to you needing someone to talk to their no-where to be seen, too busy to have a wee chat and you have to deal with it all yourself but, your used to it because it’s the way it always is. The worst of it is they don’t even know their doing it because you’ve left it this way for so long. Well I’ve grew up I’m past the stage where I’m going to be here like a doormat when my ‘friends’ need someone to talk to, or the one they come running to when everything fucks up, when they don’t have anyone else they think you‘re good enough and your always going to be around to pick up the pieces for them well I‘m not. I have everyone I need in my life right now and I don’t need ‘friends’ like that when I now know who my real Friends are the ones I talk to every day even if it’s just to see how they are, the ones that can tell after a few words that there is something up and no matter how many times you say “It’s nothing” they still know it’s not. The ones where you always help each other and no matter what your doing none of you are to busy when the other needs you even if it’s a chat on the phone or a quick text or talking till silly hours of the morning on msn. The ones that are talking about what were doing months down the line but include the words “you and bump” because they know the reality of what it’s going to be like and accept it will always be me and the wee one, and the wee one will come before anything. Basically this is just a big thank you to all my proper friends I have for being there for me and helping me through everything lately, I really don’t know what I would have done without you and I’m just grateful to have you around. Love Leeann xo