Been a Long timee lol

I'm due my gorgeous baby boy 8 weeks tmorro =D, really can't wait! Getting really tired all the time now and my back is killing me, and coz he's so big now his kicks and movements are more powerful, which my ribs are not greatful for lol. He's been lying head down feet up for a while now and I know this coz everytime he kicks it's my ribs that get it! lol. Painted my room the other week and Logan now has his own wee nursery part in my room now it's looking good =D. So excited for christmas it's unreal! lol i want to put my tree up now and make the house look like santas grotto! lol

9.10.09

Been away on holiday with my family for a week, i didn't contact anyone, been home a few hours and sat on msn still no-one has spoke to me oft I was missed eh =| feel quite low to say the least. Truely on my own right now. Feeling my wee boy moving or kicking is really what keeps the smile on my face and is keeping me going, can't wait to finaly having him here.

been a while

haven't blogged in a while so just a wee update :). I'm 25 weeks pregnant today, only 15 weeks to go lol. I'm really tired most of the time now and getting back pain loads still no sickness thou and hope it stays like that! lol. My bumps getting really big now and got loads of stretch marks the cream isn't really doing much now not impressed haha. Done loads more shopping for Logan still have a few clothes to pick up but its just blankets and bumper sets for the cot then the cot and pram I need to get now. Got the bouncer chair the other week its lovely and vibrates so feels like he's in the car. Away on holiday in three weeks :) can't wait its not far away but its away from here for a week wont have no internet thou :| dunno how ill cope! lol. I have my own room now! my mum and sister are sharing and i have my own room until Logan gets here lol, his stuff is already taking over my room and ive not even got the cot in here yet! I have to go for a glucose test on the 29th of this month to see if i have gestational diabetes which is just diabetes in pregnancy and if i do might explain why i am so tired all the time if not I'm just lazy! lol.

boredd

I'm writing this out or pure boredom tbh lol. Scan went great on wednesday, he's healthy and everythings totaly normal :D. Midwife on Thursday was great I was kinda dreading coz a few midwifes I've seen at my scans have been quite nasty and I haven't felt comfortable with them but, the one I saw on Thursday really was great was so nice and I'm glad it's her I'll see all the time from now on. I got to hear his heartbeat aswell, it's so strong and I couldn't stop smiling all day :D. X factor started tonight I've been looking forward to it all week :$ lol, it didn't dissapoint either the last guy that was on was amazing! but i didn;t even hear his name haha. Logans been moving about loads today! Feeling it more now i think coz he's getting bigger :), midwife said that by 28 weeks I'll be able to feel his head, back and bum :) lol. I'm quite bored tonight since x factors finished and no-ones on msn :( lol. I have nothing planned for next week at all it'll be good the first day to have peace while my sis is at school and my mums at work then i'll get bored lol. i swear i have no social life at all althou I've got my cousins 18th birthday next weekend i don't think I can afford to go and everyone will be gettin drunk and I'll be on irn bru all night! lol

:(

Louise is away home today :(, saw her for the last time yesterday and i miss her already :$ lol. Louise was the first person to feel the baby kick yesterday, was really light but she's the first person to feel the baby kick other than me lol. He is moving around so much the now kicking loads aswell especialy at night times it's great thou. I have my scan tomorrow just to get another view of his heart to make sure everythings all good taking my gran with me she's all excited it's cute lol. I got some knitted ugg boots yesterday and they are so comfy! It's like wearing my slippers all the time haha. Had the stupid work men here doing our roof and they are really starting to annoy me! Their banging the roof so hard the celin in my room is crumbling and falling on the floor! I'll be surprized if our house is still up by the time they're finished lol. Got the midwife on thursday for my 22 week check up hopefully i'll get to hear the babys heartbeat if not I'll be a bit gutted lol. Sisters back to school tomorrow (thank god) had to look after her for 6 weeks and I'll be glad for a little but peace during the day now haha, she's been trying her new school clothes on and looks so grow up, makes me feel old! I've to take her to the dentist on friday because my mum is to scared to take her, i hate our dentist thou she's a bit stuck up haha. Feeling a bit pist off today the baby's dad hasn't been in touch since i phoned him to tell him that we we're having a little boy and he knows i have a scan tomorrow so we shall see if i get a phone call i pretty much doubt it, he doesn't seem that interested anymore he was at the begining to the point it annoyed me he was phoning that much now i never hear from him, is this just a glimps of what is to come in the future? I hope not but if it is it's his loss I'm not going to let it bother me I have more importnant things to worry about.

15.08.09

oh my i am so tired these days. :(. Ive just had a great couple of days with Louise, been busy everyday so was great to have a lazy day today even thou i will still be tired by the time 8 oclock comes lol. Wednesday my mum took me and my sister out for lunch i thought i would try macaroni cheese coz i couldn't remember why i didn't like it turns out its still minging lol. Then we went shopping for more baby clothes and yet i still have to get loads more although i think i will leave it till end of october till i do another big shop for baby clothes because then it will be more winter clother rather than the summery kind of stuff that we've got the now. Louise stayed over on wednesday and i kept her up with my snoring :$ i really can't help it thou i do feel bad lol. We went to Edinburgh on Thursday was a good day out done some shopping i got some clinique foundation which i LOVE obviously Louise had to help me pick it as i am crap at stuff like that lol. We went for lunch at chiquitos was so yummy and cheap to :D. By the time we got home the both of us had really sore feet and blisters :( mine is still sore even after a foot soak lol. Had to go to the job centre yesterday :( i hate that place so much! and they took me 20 minutes late the cheek of them lol, and because it was raining and Louise had her uggs on and kept sliding everywhere we had to get a taxi to and from the job centre which as like a 2 minutes walk, but least we kept a wee bit dry lol. Then Louise bought a few baby things and i saw the most gorgeous winter jacket ever! I will have to go get it lol. I'm getting really sick of my maternity jeans I really have to go shopping for new clothes just need some pennies first :(, dorothy perkins have got a bigger maternity bit now and have some really nice stuff so least i found stuff i like! lol. I'm now 5months 1 week and 4 days pregnant :) he is moving around more now especialy when i'm trying to get comfy to go to sleep, my bumps getting fairly big now, although i still feel great just get tired if im busy during the day but just need a wee sit down to recharge my batteries lol.

i'm off to make some super noodles my new craving lol

Having a....

I'm found out i'm having a baby boy!! =) over the moon and so excited!! Went shopping on wednesday and spent soo much money on clothes for him already its great to be able to actualy pic colours now! :D. The scan went great and everythings fine nothing to worry about although he kept puttin his hands over his chest so we couldn't see his heart properly, we saw it has the 4 chambers and main arteries and what not but they need another view of it so going back for another scan on the 19th :), and have an appointment with the midwife on the 20th and will hopefully get to hear his heartbeat :D. I had the names picked out since i found out i was pregnant and haven't changed my mind, so the name i've picked is Logan :) full name Logan Joseph Wilson Paterson, Joseph after my grandad and Wilson is the babys dads second name so i thought id put it in since the babys having my second name lol. Heres my scan pic :)

=D

this is just a wee quick update haven't been on much, and would love to say it's because i've been busy but it really isn't! :( lol im 19 weeks now bump is gettin bigger and felt the baby kick for definate last night! yeyyyy!! lol my tummy is slowly starting to look like a road map thou so invested in some Palmers cocoa butter for stretch marks see if it's any good i shall let you's know ;) lol i am cleaning constently atm i can't sit still for 5 minutes and the littlest bit of mess annoys me and has to be tidyed lol. 5 days till my scan now!! feels like it's dragging in lol my mum is convinced i'm having a boy i swear i should have took bets! lol. going shopping next wednesday will be great when i can actualy buy colours and not just white and cream! lol. i have finalyy picked the baby pram i want the picture doesnt make it look that amazing tbh but all the bits and bobs thats with/on it have won me over lol

I'm still not 100% on what cotbed i'm getting yet i'm thinking of one i have seen in mothercare but we shall see :D xo

18 weeks <3

18 weeks and 2 days gone =) find out what i'm having in two weeks can't wait!! been online shoppin in mothercare today and i think i may need a small fortune for everthing i want to buy lol picked a gorgeous cotbed thou so need to start saving some pennies for it. Youd think when people grow up and move away from their mum that when the fall out with people they wouldnt get their mums to leave threatenin comments on social networking sites "to take action" if it happens again all i have to say to it, its LOL love :). Baby is moving around a bit more now i swear i have felt a few kicks but i'm not 100% sure on it yet lol Booked my wee caravan holiday today 8- lol, seton sands for a week with the family including Louise if she has holidays from uni (fingers crossed) will be great just to get away from dunfermline for a bit, away from the same old lol. Really looking forward to the next few weeks mums on holiday from work soon so will be good to spend some time with her, then my 20 weeks scan find out the sex (yeyyy) and then i have Louise coming up for a wee visit hoping she gets over the Swine flu and can come up to help me wit the baby shopping! lol get better soon hun! Best news i've had all week is that i wont have to move out and will get my own room with the baby my mums an absalute star and giving her room up for me! new bed re-decorating and making it all baby safe i can't wait! Pretty boring couple of days ahead thou looking forward to buyin my maternity skinny jeans tmorro! i have missed wearing my skinnys with some flats! xo

moving out?

Todays been a eye opening day tbh, turns out we wont be getting moved to a bigger house (we as in family) any time in the near future so I have made the decision to move out before baba gets here makes life easier for everyone involved =). Quite excited about it really started making lists of everything I shall be needing checking internet prices as i will be lost without it and my laptop lol, picking out sofas and colours already and haven't even got a house! lol. Feels so grown up gonna have a gorgeous little baby and my own house by the end of the year never saw that one coming when i thought what 2009 would bring lol I'm just lucky i have great friends and family around to support me though it all. oh was 17 weeks gone yesterday so only 23 more to go! lol Everythings going pretty peachy these days and things are starting to look up bout time! lol xo

Thank You

There comes a point in life where you get sick of always being there for people and wish for once they would be there for you for a change. The ‘friends’ that tell you “their always there for you” but when it really comes to it they have something more important to do or someone more important to be with and can’t even spare 5 minutes to send you a wee text to see how your doing. The ‘friends’ that say “I don’t know what I’d do without you,” because your always there no matter how they treat you, no matter how much their not there for you because you don’t want to let them down and you know they need someone. Then when it comes to you needing someone to talk to their no-where to be seen, too busy to have a wee chat and you have to deal with it all yourself but, your used to it because it’s the way it always is. The worst of it is they don’t even know their doing it because you’ve left it this way for so long. Well I’ve grew up I’m past the stage where I’m going to be here like a doormat when my ‘friends’ need someone to talk to, or the one they come running to when everything fucks up, when they don’t have anyone else they think you‘re good enough and your always going to be around to pick up the pieces for them well I‘m not. I have everyone I need in my life right now and I don’t need ‘friends’ like that when I now know who my real Friends are the ones I talk to every day even if it’s just to see how they are, the ones that can tell after a few words that there is something up and no matter how many times you say “It’s nothing” they still know it’s not. The ones where you always help each other and no matter what your doing none of you are to busy when the other needs you even if it’s a chat on the phone or a quick text or talking till silly hours of the morning on msn. The ones that are talking about what were doing months down the line but include the words “you and bump” because they know the reality of what it’s going to be like and accept it will always be me and the wee one, and the wee one will come before anything. Basically this is just a big thank you to all my proper friends I have for being there for me and helping me through everything lately, I really don’t know what I would have done without you and I’m just grateful to have you around. Love Leeann xo